Sunday afternoon

[alt_ginny]

It has been a very eventful weekend. On Friday night someone set off a dragon firework downstairs near the entrance, and in all the confusion (and there was quite a lot of confusion) Sarah Fawcett ran out of the castle. I guess she was being disciplined by the Headmistress and thought things were so awful that it would be better to run into the Forbidden Forest.

Which seems very foolish and short-sighted of her. (Unless she had committed treason against Our Lord like Sophie Fleet! In which case it was cowardly to run away instead of facing the consequences for her terrible actions. Does anyone know what she actually did?)

Anyway apparently centaurs carried her off, that's what I heard. I heard someone say MLE came today to search for her so perhaps they will find her and bring her back. I wonder if she will get more punishment, then, or if being carried off by centaurs and lost in the Forbidden Forest is punishment enough for anyone?

Now today Headmistress Umbridge has discovered that it was my brothers Fred and George who set off the dragon firework on Friday night, and she has punished them with cruciatus and by making them each believe that the other is dead. So for those of you who saw their journal posts, don't worry, they're both very much alive and in Gryffindor Tower where people are keeping them company and consoling them. 

Sometime yet today I will need to try to finish my Potions homework. 

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Private message to Ron

[alt_ginny]

I'm not going to worry about the potions homework. That's just so hopefully Slughorn will see it and tell me not to worry.

We might want to think about shifts tonight, overnight, because the worst would be if we all try to stay up and then everyone nods off at 4 a.m. and the twins wake up and don't have anyone to talk them down again.

And I remember after Dad died, 4 was when I woke up. Like every night. For days. And lay in bed alone thinking. And it was bad enough just knowing I'd lost Dad, I wasn't lying there thinking 'it was my fault, it was my fault.' You know?

Re: Private message to Ron

[alt_ron]

Yeah.


Are you all right there, Gin? I mean, I know this is hard to watch. And, yeah, it does make you remember how it was after Dad--

Yeah.

Re: Private message to Ron

[alt_ginny]

I'm managing.

Ron, I think you should plan to go down for supper, and eat as much as you can. It's harder to stay up all hours if you're hungry.

Some of the others of us can cover for you, you know? If we could have the elves send sandwiches that would be different.

Re: Private message to Ron

[alt_ron]

I don't know. I'm not very hungry.

You know what's worst about this? That you can tell Fred it's all right, George is alive, but a moment later he's forgotten that. And a moment after that, it's like he's back at the start this morning, just finding out for the first time that George has died. So you tell him all over again, and you can see he looks relieved, and then it just slips through his mind, and he's back in the horror of it one more time. Over and over and over.


If he just wouldn't cry, y'know?

Re: Private message to Ron

[alt_ginny]

Yeah.

That's exactly it.

I keep remembering that moment when we found out that Dad was dead. And how much it hurt. They're reliving THAT MOMENT, over and over.

Re: Private message to Ron

[alt_ginny]

So there's something I have been thinking I should tell you and I don't think Umbridge will make me read down this far even if she makes me read my message to you.

You know that tiara she was wearing at dinner last night?

Re: Private message to Ron

[alt_ron]

You're going somewhere with this, right?

I mean, either I'm going mad now, too, or you just brought up the most unrelated thing possible-

I don't think there's anything about Umbridge that can make me laugh now, Gin.

Re: Private message to Ron

[alt_ginny]

I'm not trying to be funny!

Ron, that tiara is cursed. I found it in this room full of years ago. I kept it in a box and I'd put it on, sometimes. It made me feel beautiful special good, to wear it, at first, but I realised this year that it made me think thoughts

I don't even know how to explain this without sounding utterly mad.

It's cursed, Ron. The tiara. I think. When I'd wear it I would feel beautiful but I'd also feel like no one around me was worthy. I'd feel clever but I'd also feel like everyone around me was an utter fool. And it was worst with my family

A few months ago I was going to show it to Professor Dolohov. But Umbridge caught me with it and took it away and I told Professor Dolohov that but I don't think he did anything to get it back from her and Ron, I think that's why she's getting more and more awful, does that make it my fault? If I'd just thrown the tiara away instead of taking it to Professor Dolohov she wouldn't have got it from me, would she?

Is it my fault? What she did to Fred and George?

Because the tiara would think it was HILARIOUS

Re: Private message to Ron

[alt_ron]

Whoa.

Take a breath, Gin. And another.

None of this is anyway your fault. At all.

I can't really talk about it now, but yeah. Okay, we'll talk later. When this isn't all so mad.

Re: Private message to Ron

[alt_ginny]

Okay.

Did you get anything to eat? I know how much you eat in a normal day. I don't want you collapsing from hunger.

Private Message to Ginny

[alt_evelyn]

Let me know if there's anything I can do.

Or anything I can pass along to other people in Gryffindor.

I'm so sorry, Ginny.

Re: Private Message to Ginny

[alt_ginny]

Just keep McLaggen away from them. I'm going to hex them if I have to look at their faces again.

Re: Private Message to Ginny

[alt_evelyn]

I can do that.

Re: Private Message to Ginny

[alt_ginny]

Hex HIM. HIM. Not them. Him is McLaggen. Them is Fred and George. I'm not going to hex Fred and George. That's the last thing any of us need.

I think I'm losing my mind, Evelyn.

Re: Private Message to Ginny

[alt_evelyn]

I know what you meant.

It's okay.