Coda

Sep. 1st, 2015 09:15 am
alt_ginny: (Pleased)
GINNY WEASLEY recovers from her trauma and is released from Order custody back to her family in late September. She lives at the Burrow until late October, then goes back to Hogwarts to finish up her NEWTs. However, by early December she's back at the Burrow -- being at Hogwarts is just too difficult. She winds up doing independent study for her NEWTs with a tutor (paid for out of the remaining money from her modeling days) and gets acceptable though unexceptional scores when she sits the exams in the spring.

Living at the Burrow, she turns to physical activity as something that doesn't re-trigger her trauma, and rediscovers her love for Quidditch. She winds up playing for the Holyhead Harpies for a few years, although she suspects it's more that having a war hero on the team gives them cachet than because she's actually good enough to play professionally; she spends a lot of time on the bench. After retiring from the team, she becomes a sports reporter.

She and Luna stay close friends.
alt_ginny: (just here)
I wasn't able to stay long at Justin's funeral yesterday, because -- well, they're not letting me out yet without minders, and everyone had things they needed to be doing other than minding me. So I didn't get to talk to you.

But I wanted to tell you I am so sorry for your loss.

From things I've overheard I'm pretty sure Justin killed Ptolemy Baddock. And I wish I could have thanked him for that.

How are you doing? Is it true you have Lana Sandoval's your sister? Half-sister, I guess.
alt_ginny: (Determined)
I heard what happened.

Please let me go to the funeral.
alt_ginny: (00_withdrawal)
As you probably noticed, they gave me my journal back. I asked for it so I could write to Mum and Bill, because I still don't really want to see them yet. Charlie said he thought I was allowed to take as long as I needed. But I thought I could write to them, anyway, that would be something.

I feel like I should tell you

I told Luna today that I feel like the worst Gryffindor of all time. I couldn't -- when they took me into the interrogation room I told myself I wouldn't say anything, I'd hold out, but it wasn't much time at all before I'd told them everything I knew, everything I thought I knew, and started begging them to stop cruciating me. (They didn't.) When I joined the Order I told Hermione Granger I'd die before I told them the Order's secrets, and that turned out to be a lie. I mean, if I could have died I would have. I'd have done anything to get away. I mean, literally anything. If the only way to kill myself had been setting myself on fire I'd have done it. I tried to kill myself with a bed spring, later that night, but they caught me and took it away.

So she was right about me, after all. I was a failure as an Order member. I was a failure as a family member. If they'd offered to stop cruciating me if I'd killed one of you I'm pretty sure I'd have done it. As it was the only way to get them to stop was to break Mum's heart and I did that.

When they caught Neville, he had Hydra break his mind with cruciatus. He ASKED her. To make sure he wouldn't do what I did, and give everything away. Hermione and Draco held out until they were rescued and saved all of us.

I didn't.

Luna said I should think of it like her lycanthropy. Once a month she loses her mind, more or less, because that's what lycanthropy does. And this is what cruciatus does to people, it strips away ... who they thought they were. It breaks them apart. That I can't blame myself for what they did to me any more than she can blame herself for what they did to her.

But Ron it's so hard.
alt_ginny: (00_remainder)
I asked for my journal back so I could write to you. I'm not

I don't

Seeing you is still too hard.

I understand now what they did to me. That they made me remember things that weren't real. But they still feel real. Healer Hadresham says that over time that will get less true and things will get easier.

I've asked if I can come stay at Hogwarts to be closer to all of you and Healer Hadresham said she'd talk to Madam Pomfrey and they'll think about it.
alt_ginny: (Affectionate)
I've been trying to catch you in person but it seems like any time I'm at the castle, you're not. Was the second full moon any less awful for you than the first? If you ARE here and free this evening, I'm here! and free! and we could go take sandwiches out by the lake or something. (If you're not, well, I'll keep trying.)
alt_ginny: (Pleased)
I sent Mrs Longbottom the list of people Honoria and I talked to this week and whether they're solidly Order, solidly not, wavering, or if they refused to talk to us. I wish we could go into New London, there are so MANY people I want to talk to there, but I guess it's going to be a while before that's not too dangerous?

The people who aren't on our side think the fake Phoenix attacks really are us. The people who ARE on our side don't believe it for a minute and think it's the Death Eaters. Oh plus there's this one bloke who thought it was some third group I'd never heard of and I think he'd made up. And we heard some other odd theories. People are strange.

Anyway, Honoria and I made up a list for next week of people to visit. For some of them we're thinking there are people we'd like to bring with us, unless they're too busy to consider it. Madam Pomfrey for the people who have connections to St Mungo's, Pansy for some of the more uptight purebloods (she's better at being charming than Draco is), we're thinking about a few others. If they have time. Anyway. I hope this is helpful?
alt_ginny: (Determined)
You know that room full of papers and things that Rachel and Bill and everyone brought back here from the Ministry? Rachel asked me and Honoria to start going through all of it and we've been working on it. There was this locked cabinet I finally got open this morning that's full of wands, tagged with their owner.

One of them is tagged 'LONGBOTTOM N, 23DEC1997, CHERRY/UNICORN.' I'll bring it up to your office but I just wanted to let you know it's here and we found it.

There are also wands for loads of the people we liberated from Azkaban, like Astra Morgansen and Doria Hibbings.

Aloysius Archer's wand is here, too.
alt_ginny: (fearful)
You should know that yesterday, I used polyjuice to take Ron's place guarding the Great Hall, so that he could slip away and go to help with the plan that was used to kill the Lord Protector (who's dead, really dead, just so you know. Dead forever.)

Anyway for most of the afternoon and during the battle until the polyjuice wore off, that was me you were seeing, not Ron. When Desai had Pansy cruciated -- that was me doing it. So, don't blame Ron for that. Although if he'd been there, I think he probably would have done it too, because the purpose of the singing was to create a distraction so we could all get our wands back.

Pansy, I'm really really sorry, though.
alt_ginny: (Wary)
Did the GROUND just shake? What was that???
alt_ginny: (Afraid)
I need to go to the

oh Merlin

I need to go to the hospital wing. Immediately.
alt_ginny: (listening)
I know you want to be able to tell your friends and family who aren't at school about our thoroughly exciting evening, but maybe take your noses out of your journals a bit before our Head of House decides to incinerate your journals lest they distract you from exams?
alt_ginny: (nervous)
Lana Sandoval had the Gryffindor prefects slip calming potions to all the younger Gryffindors this morning.

But apparently the Headmaster also dosed EVERYONE with calming potions. Not a full dose, though, I guess just a little bit.

Is that dangerous to the younger Gryffindors at all? Being dosed twice? Walburga Hornby fell out of her chair at lunch and someone carried her to the Hospital Wing. The rest are having a lot of trouble staying awake.
alt_ginny: (fearful)
I haven't seen her writing to you but it's all over the school and I think you ought to know: Daphne got engaged to Auror Crouch.
alt_ginny: (Default)
Dear Mum --
We got your parcels at breakfast. Thanks for the biscuits and note! Classes and everything are going fine.
love, Ginny
alt_ginny: (nervous)
Those pamphlets we're supposed to be confiscating, have you seen one?
alt_ginny: (listening)
I'm worried about Ron. Justin, I'm sorry to bother you but you at least were at dinner tonight. I tried to find Ron earlier and I couldn't, and he hasn't been at any meals, and

I know they made him do horrible things. And you, too.

Ron never -- I mean, he almost never loses his appetite. Even after our Dad died he was still eating. Not much and not like he was enjoying the food but there was food around (because people brought it) and he was eating it.

I mean maybe he's just getting sandwiches from the elves or something but could you check? He told me if he wanted someone to act like Mum he'd just answer her message. I'm TRYING not to hover. I'm trying to give him space. I'm just really worried.
alt_ginny: (listening)
Are you going to come to dinner?

You have to eat sometime.
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