Private Message to Honoria
Feb. 3rd, 2012 06:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
alt_ginnyHonoria,
I didn't mean to not be around this evening. I did want to talk to you. Now that we are in the new year, it seems that everything has gotten much more demanding for me. With the designers working on their new spring lines, and the Valentine's issue getting ready to print, I have less time than usual. You know that I have been off to New London every other weekend. I have shoot's and fittings, and I never thought I'd be so busy.
I hardly have time to hang around with friends anymore, when I am here I am stuck in the library making sure I stay ahead on all of my subjects. Its work, work, work! And though it looks glamourous, its not as fun as it started off nor as easy as I thought it was. I truly feel as though I am caught in between two worlds- that of adulthood and just being a kid; I neither fit in nor belong to either.
The plus side of working is that my wardrobe has never looked better, and I now have my own vault at Gringotts that's slowly filling up with my own gold. On the academic side I am revising so much my head hurts, I am up so late I am always tired in the morning (and thanks to the face treatments I am made to use- no one will ever tell) , but my marks have been superb.
I also think I have done something without thinking. My contract is non compete. Which I think I am holding up honourably. The way it was written when my Mum gave me permission, gave me the right to extend my contract on my own due to their being no time line attached. Given that my initial contract will end this summer, all Purest Sparkle needed was a verbal agreement from me to keep me for another year. I was asked about that this past weekend, and I accepted to stay on through next Christmas. I am now wondering if I should have asked for her advice first.
I am just extremely tired. But I am also happy with what this opportunity has given me. I am just tired of feeling like I am stuck between the two worlds I am apart of yet don't belong to.
I hope I can return to being a better friend to you.
I didn't mean to not be around this evening. I did want to talk to you. Now that we are in the new year, it seems that everything has gotten much more demanding for me. With the designers working on their new spring lines, and the Valentine's issue getting ready to print, I have less time than usual. You know that I have been off to New London every other weekend. I have shoot's and fittings, and I never thought I'd be so busy.
I hardly have time to hang around with friends anymore, when I am here I am stuck in the library making sure I stay ahead on all of my subjects. Its work, work, work! And though it looks glamourous, its not as fun as it started off nor as easy as I thought it was. I truly feel as though I am caught in between two worlds- that of adulthood and just being a kid; I neither fit in nor belong to either.
The plus side of working is that my wardrobe has never looked better, and I now have my own vault at Gringotts that's slowly filling up with my own gold. On the academic side I am revising so much my head hurts, I am up so late I am always tired in the morning (and thanks to the face treatments I am made to use- no one will ever tell) , but my marks have been superb.
I also think I have done something without thinking. My contract is non compete. Which I think I am holding up honourably. The way it was written when my Mum gave me permission, gave me the right to extend my contract on my own due to their being no time line attached. Given that my initial contract will end this summer, all Purest Sparkle needed was a verbal agreement from me to keep me for another year. I was asked about that this past weekend, and I accepted to stay on through next Christmas. I am now wondering if I should have asked for her advice first.
I am just extremely tired. But I am also happy with what this opportunity has given me. I am just tired of feeling like I am stuck between the two worlds I am apart of yet don't belong to.
I hope I can return to being a better friend to you.
